The day has finally come. A day I have worked so hard and so diligently to make happen. A day that I have dreamed about for a long time. But as I sit here in the airport typing this out I am filled with so many conflicting emotions. Am I ready for this? Is it worth it to have to leave my friends and family for so long? Is my German good enough? Will I even be a good teacher? There are so many questions, and the only answer I have right now is: I don’t know.
I don’t know if I’m ready. I don’t know if my German is good enough (in all honestly, it is probably going to be a struggle, haha, and I should study on the plane). I don’t know if I will be a good teacher. But I do know that I have to take this step. I have to try. It is in these difficult moments that we really find out what we are made of. And though there is so much I don’t know, I know that this experience will change me for the better. For that reason, I am so excited!
I am excited to test myself. To see what I am made of. To push myself out of my comfort zone and keep pushing. To try and be the best damn English teaching assistant Germany has ever seen.
The tattoo on my wrist reads, “my story isn’t over”: it is there to remind me that I am the author of my own book. I get to write my own story–full of daring adventure and plenty of plot twists. [Plus, in my version, I am the stunningly charismatic protagonist!] Right now, in this airport, I am closing one chapter and starting another. I am beyond grateful to the people in my book who have helped shape me into the person I am today. You have all been beautiful, dynamic characters and I love each and every one of you. And don’t worry, you’re all still a part of my story. Though there is physical distance between us, you will all still fill the pages of my book every single day. A year from now, I will return to the United States and finish writing this new section. But for now, I am excited to start this next chapter in my story.